Week 20

WE ARE HALFWAY THERE!!!

5 months. I still get giddy thinking we made it to such a huge milestone. We are officially on the downhill, and more importantly halfway to meeting our sweet girl.

At Christmas, my sweet friend Margie gave me this chalkboard sign, and I wanted to document week by week. I haven't posted all of theses, because I remember the sting every time seeing one, desperately wanting it to be me. We have them, because I want to document this part of her life for her, but they will stay here only, so if you don't want to see them you can make that decision.

 5 Months! I feel like I woke up one morning and this belly appeared. It makes me so excited that she is getting bigger, and the Dr. said she is right in the position she needs to be.

How far along? 20 weeks

Total weight gain? Suprisingly only 5 lbs so far, I fought really hard to loose weight and achieved 61 lbs before IVF. I did gain some back from not exercising any after the SCH scare. But from Day 1 of pregnancy till week 20 has only been 5lbs. 

Maternity clothes? Yes. I discovered the joy of maternity clothes! I remember crying in the changing room, and feeling relieved, my clothes all hurt! 

Stretch marks? Not yet. I can see them faintly coming though. 

Sleep: What's that? I have horrible insomnia, and our cat has gone crazy thinking it's okay to wake me up when her Daddy leaves for work (3 am!!)

Best moment this week: I finally felt her kick! 19 weeks 4 days. Very faint but it was a moment I anxiously prayed for! 

Miss anything? I'm just now realizing how much I will miss my old life. I am so ready to give it up, but learning in these next months I have to slow down and get ready for the new normal has been really tough. Mike and I have been on our own for almost 10 years, letting that get up and go aspect is hard. But I am so ready to do it! 

Movement: FINALLY! 

Food cravings: It's sad really. Ice cream. I have to have it ALL THE TIME! Which is why I was so surprised of the weight gain. 

Anything making you feel queasy or sick: All of the morning sickness I had, and it was pretty bad, thankfully went away around week 14, but it has come back with a vengeance! Everything makes me sick again. Which is okay, it means her taste buds are forming. 

Showing? Yes!

Gender: GIRL

Labor signs: Nope.

Symptoms: SUPER emotional, random gagging through out the day, and fatigue. 

Belly button in or out? In.

Wedding ring on or off? Off. Only because I lost it about a month ago. A new ring is just not in the budget right now.  

Happy or moody most of the time: Happy. Anxious. I was diagnosed with high blood pressure this week, so I'm concentrated on getting her here safely! Not a minute before July! 

Looking forward to: Another Doctor's visit. We get to finally see the Doctor that began this journey with us, and also checking in with the high risk specialist to see how SCH is looking, and will be her anatomy scan! Let's hope she's still a girl! 

What’s Going on With Baby:

• She weighs about 10.5 ounces now, and is about 10 inches from head to heel. She’s the length of a banana!
• She is swallowing more, and producing meconium, a black, sticky by-product of digestion. Lovely.
• Her limbs are becoming more distinguished. 
• Is starting to look like Mike and I more and more. The tech even said her chin is very prominent HELLO DADDY! 

It's so hard to believe in 4-5 months I get to finally meet this little girl that I waited so long for!